Evading the understanding range of hordes
Experience being the only way to strike chords
The worst state of mind a human can reach
A dark and forboding heaviness that breach;
An immoveable gloom that incapacitates
I wouldn’t wish it on my worst enemy
This dejecting thing called depression;
Holding me a slave, owning me in supression
When this darkness decent and covers me
It’s chokehold so strong and to the tee
I believed it would choke the life out of me
Breathing became hard and did I struggle!
Then I recall to breathe; to breathe deeply
Breathe in through the nose, then breathe out
Inhale, hold and exhale through the mouth
Some days are uncertain and frightful
Still some days feel lively and hopeful
Materializing into real interaction with people
But the dark days would descend sooner
They always come in a rush than later
Sometimes keeping my eyes open is difficult
For the pain is blinding and unsettled
So familiar, yet so despairing and unmuzzled
An intimacy I abhor yet one I grasped
One that hugs me in a tight embrace;
It literally shuts the light out of my face
And makes me most uncertain of my pace
A glimmer of hope remains unabated though
Indicating a future where I am in control
Making choices and feeling sure like before
Where the sun shines and the birds sing in galore
Hopeless and desperate from exposure
Feeling debilitated from numbing enclosure
A trip to and back the dark end of the noose;
The world seem apt without me on the loose
The darkened mind is muddled and contends
Within and without for light and darkness
And yet a sojourn in the darkened distress
Ultimately reveal the light’s exuberance,
The existence of darkness is light’s evidence
Comfort is at hand with every agony
Hope is at the other end of despair, ready
The gloom buckles under the promise of clarity
For the Light of the World has arose
The Son of Man with offer one cannot refuse;
Heaven; love, hope, clarity, immortality ensue
In a state where one will never again confuse
Armed with that glimmer of Living Hope
It’s redemption working in me confidence
Surrendering to its’ graceful assurance
Accepted, assured and joyful like never before
Surging for the uphill climb, strength restored
To defeat the ache of the darkness again
Endurance and grit has been regained
Like the multitude before us who exemplify
That there is possibility beyond depression
Left with the scars from regeneration
Equipped to use the power of choice to be
Recognising the Sovereign Hand that be
Turning my darkness into light and hope
From the bog secure my feet on rock
Training me to be still and trust Him – my Rock
Daily leads me with loving kindness in His might
And kept me by His song in the Night.